I'm new here, and I decided to join mostly to see if anyone else had this sort of story, or maybe could help assuage some fears. I've had some lingering questions about weird pseudo-memories, and I hope someone can tell me I'm just being paranoid. Seriously.
When I was pretty young, about 6, I remember being very, very afraid of things with big heads, big black eyes, and skinny little bodies. It was the eyes, though, that could make me breathless with fear all throughout childhood. I don't just mean nervous, or I'd jump a little if I saw a picture of this stereotypical "grey." (I can't look long at the cover of "Communion.") I felt (and still do) this punching blow of "fight or flight" to my middle that almost renders me incoherent with fear. I'll confess that I sleep with a light on and blankets over my head if alone, and I'm 24 years old. I've always felt like a huge baby about it, and if it weren't for the fact that I don't know any of you, I wouldn't bring that aspect up, but I think about seeing one by my bed, and well... I think I've made the fear part clear.
I didn't give this a whole lot of thought until my dad recently told me about my uncle's fears as a child. My dad will take any opportunity to riff on his little brother, so I thought this was just going to be a funny story. But he described how my uncle, at the age of around 5, would have to call his parents to his room (and sometimes my dad) to calm him down at night. He would talk about the white, skinny people with big black eyes and long, strange fingers trying to get him. I have to admit that this shocked and scared me to hear. My dad said that my uncle was frightened of this same thing for years and years, and suggested more seriously that I not bring it up with him, as apparently he doesn't like to discuss it. My dad's an academic, and pretty no-nonsense when it comes to paranormal stuff, so I didn't pursue my questions. But I definitely have them.
I want to make it clear that I am in no way saying that I think I was abducted, or that my uncle was. I don't want to found a cult. I just don't know what to make of this, and wonder if anyone out there has ever had this level of seemingly irrational fear. As a product of the late 80's, early 90's, I was undoubtedly in a culture that already embraced the image of a "grey" alien. But I guess I wonder why other people laugh or scoff at the depiction, and it's my boogeyman. My boyfriend says that the grey alien is pretty boring as alien depictions go, but I think it's the most terrifying thing conceived. So... suggestions/anecdotes would be most helpful.
When I was pretty young, about 6, I remember being very, very afraid of things with big heads, big black eyes, and skinny little bodies. It was the eyes, though, that could make me breathless with fear all throughout childhood. I don't just mean nervous, or I'd jump a little if I saw a picture of this stereotypical "grey." (I can't look long at the cover of "Communion.") I felt (and still do) this punching blow of "fight or flight" to my middle that almost renders me incoherent with fear. I'll confess that I sleep with a light on and blankets over my head if alone, and I'm 24 years old. I've always felt like a huge baby about it, and if it weren't for the fact that I don't know any of you, I wouldn't bring that aspect up, but I think about seeing one by my bed, and well... I think I've made the fear part clear.
I didn't give this a whole lot of thought until my dad recently told me about my uncle's fears as a child. My dad will take any opportunity to riff on his little brother, so I thought this was just going to be a funny story. But he described how my uncle, at the age of around 5, would have to call his parents to his room (and sometimes my dad) to calm him down at night. He would talk about the white, skinny people with big black eyes and long, strange fingers trying to get him. I have to admit that this shocked and scared me to hear. My dad said that my uncle was frightened of this same thing for years and years, and suggested more seriously that I not bring it up with him, as apparently he doesn't like to discuss it. My dad's an academic, and pretty no-nonsense when it comes to paranormal stuff, so I didn't pursue my questions. But I definitely have them.
I want to make it clear that I am in no way saying that I think I was abducted, or that my uncle was. I don't want to found a cult. I just don't know what to make of this, and wonder if anyone out there has ever had this level of seemingly irrational fear. As a product of the late 80's, early 90's, I was undoubtedly in a culture that already embraced the image of a "grey" alien. But I guess I wonder why other people laugh or scoff at the depiction, and it's my boogeyman. My boyfriend says that the grey alien is pretty boring as alien depictions go, but I think it's the most terrifying thing conceived. So... suggestions/anecdotes would be most helpful.
