The Tall Whites have always been a problem for me.
I'll give you an example.
I was driving in my car one time--this wasn't a bedroom visitation, I wasn't asleep, it wasn't sleep paralysis--although I have had that once, and it is kind of scary, for about five seconds--and I saw some super-bright lights up ahead on the road. Initially I thought they were up in the sky, but as my car approached, I could see whatever it was was on the ground, a bit off the road. The lights were very bright and white-yellow, kind of like the color of sodium lamps.
As I pulled the car over into the clearing, the indistinct bright light became easier to see, and it appeared to be a convenience store! Right out in the middle of nowhere! There were definitely some tall creatures walking around--yep, the familiar Tall Whites.
Funny, I wasn't scared at all, although I'd read about these kind of close encounters in Budd Hopkins' books--I knew right away what to expect, but it didn't even occur to me for some reason to be scared.
Now, here's how realistic this scenario was--when I entered the craft, there was a "door" with a "bell". As I swung it open, it had the exact sort of heft and cold metallic feel that a real convenience store door would have had, and when it closed behind me, I could hear that bell again. Like the Tall Whites had tied one on to the door or something.
One of the Tall Whites was dressed in a cover-all smock or something, and it looked RIGHT AT ME and nodded. Trying to play it cool, I nodded back, and since I still seemed to be under my own control, I quickly moved away from it, toward the back.
The whole ship seemed to be one brightly lit room, with a huge glass front and glass all up and down one perpendicular side. The parallel side from the front had fixtures and machines all over it, with some sort of flesh on display, and little carousels rotating around. There were also spigots, hoses, and I could notice they had set up some kind of behavorial test to see which kind of "drink" I was going to fix myself. Although one of the Tall Whites seemed to not even notice me, the one behind the counter seemed to be almost fixated on my every move, so, I put my hand on what looked like a container of some kind and it felt like fresh wax. It wasn't hot, though, it was room temperature.
I grabbed, hard, and one of the things just came out of the wall, in my hand. It had straight vertical lines on it and different colors, which I can't remember now. I turned to one of the machines, and after looking at the front of it, and not really being able to determine what any of the glyphs or lettering meant, I put the top of it up to what looked like a plastic dispenser, and ice came out! In perfect little cubes!
Well, at this point, because it had made noise, the other Tall White looked over at me, and instinctually, I just started putting different colored fluids into the container with the vertical stripes. I was starting to freak out, so I held the container up to one nozzle and let a little of one liquid pour in, and then another, and then another--and pretty soon it was full.
I looked around and found they had arranged an area with plastic very concisely nearby, so I took a thin, transparent piece and affixed it to the top, and a long, thin one, and inserted it into the center of that. That seemed to work well, and seemed to be the right behavior, because I could see the other Tall White going back to its business, nodding its head and moving something silently down an aisle adjacent to me.
There were no other people there, except for me and the Tall Whites.
I realized that I had better try to get out of there while I still could. Everything seemed to be normal, and I realized that they had made me leave my camera in my car, because it wasn't around my neck. I thought about getting a picture on my camera phone, but I realized it would just come out fuzzy and indistinct--and I didn't want to arouse any more suspicion.
So--tentatively--I approached the counter where the lead Tall White was--I could tell he was the leader because he was at least a foot taller than the other one was--and I was contemplating what forms of death I might have to be subjected to.
Suddenly, it spoke, with that weird mouth, "Suicide".
I was instantly shot through with fear--They were going to control my actions, just like I'd read about in Dr. Jacobs' books, and I'd probably be left on the side of the road with my anus cored out for Linda Multoun Howe to see, with an alien note scribbled in some bizarre unknown language that crime scene investigators would have to assume was from me.... So I quickly and as calmly as I could muster grabbed a couple of bucks from my pocket and set them down on the counter... and ran back outside to my car as fast as I could!
I was afraid the Tall Whites had powerfailed my car, but it started right up. I still had the container with the alien fluids in it, so I put it into my drink holder--funny, it fit exactly--and got the hell out of there, leaving skid marks on the highway.
As I sped off into the night, the bright lights got smaller and smaller in my rearview mirror, and I realized the Tall Whites were not in pursuit. They evidently had just wanted to see how I would perform in their environment.
Although I probably don't recall all the other times I've encountered them and been made to forget, I'll never forget my incident with the Tall Whites that one night... The drink tasted awful, and I poured it out as soon as I got home. The caustic, brown liquid smelled sickeningly sweet and went down the drain in the sink with a hiss. I felt I was lucky to have gotten away with my life.
It's amazing, since then, I see the Tall Whites all the time, and either they think I'm one of them, or they just don't care. I hardly ever see one as tall as that leader though.
This is the first time I've talked about it in public. Man, I can't wait to get back to New Guinea.