Angel of Ioren
Friendly Skeptic
You have run into the same thing I did back in my 20's. I was really searching for what was the truth, and I did not find it in conventional Christianity, in fact the more I examined and questioned it the more alienated from it I became. I ended up being quite the bitter little atheist for a while there, and my patron philosopher was Bertrand Russell, who took the Christian dogmas apart quite expertly.
You must remember that the Bible is the writings of men, some of them holy men, others not so holy. It is NOT the literal word of God as some insist out of their need for absolute certainty. The book of Judges, for instance, was written by the tribal sheiks of the tribes that migrated out of Egypt escaping from pharaoh Ramses.
It is very important to understand that religion, and the mortal concept of God has been evolving and growing over the ages, and the concept of God in much of the Bible is that of primitive tribesmen in the Old Testament, which should be regarded as more of a historical allegory than a guide by which to live. It reflects the values and beliefs of people living in the distant past whose concept of the Father in Heaven is a most primitive one.
For these reasons we cannot base our faith on the Bible as the word of God, for it is not. It does contain much of spiritual value and valuable lessons and teachings, particularly at the point where Jesus comes into the mix. You may note that the teachings of Jesus are of a much different character than earlier writings, especially in the Old Testament.
His message was in the main, the Fatherhood of God, and the brotherhood of all mankind. If you keep to that you are better off than you will be mired in all the doctrine and dogma of the fossilized churches of what is called Christianity, which is in general a religion built up around the person of Jesus, his death, and resurrection, rather than around what he actually taught. That is to say, Christianity as we know it glorifies the teacher at the expense of his teachings.
Well said.
I've heard many people say that if one were to actually read the bible, he or she would no longer think about Christianity in the same way.