On the issue of mystical experiences. I've had a few, including one experience where I believed at the time that I had been in the presence of God.
So you are no longer claiming to have had a mystical experience, correct?
Underhill defines mysticism as:
"Mysticism, according to its historical and psychological definitions, is the direct intuition or experience of God; and a mystic is a person who has, to a greater or lesser degree, such a direct experience—one whose religion and life are centred not merely on an accepted belief or practice, but on that which he regards as first-hand personal knowledge (E. Underhill, The Mystics of the Church)."
but what you are calling here a mystical experience was not, you now believe, an experience of being in the presence of a deity, higher power, higher intelligence or anything supernatural . . . so what do you now call this experience - what do you think happened to you?
So I might be somewhat more qualified to comment on the idea you're presenting in the context of a mystical experience. I usually refer to this experience as an archetypal religious experience because it manifested itself in a manner consistent with the modus operandi found in the mythology.
can you define
archetypal as you use it here? The way Jung talks about archetypes (and I'm not sure I have ever fully grasped Jung's idea of archetypes) or something wired into the brain as either an epiphenomena or having some evolutionary purpose . . . or something else? What do you mean by the
modus operandi found in the mythology? I'm just not familiar with these terms as you are using them here -
I don't bring it up very often, but in this instance it's fitting for the topic. Having been in that situation, at the time, I had no doubt whatsoever in my mind that I was in the presence of what some people have called God. Indeed, I went on for some time believing that there is a God, not necessarily the same character in all the biblical lore that has been interpreted as God, but the kind of God that is associated with omnipresence and undeniable love.
-so your definition of God at that time was a being/entity/force/essence that was omnipresent and consisted of undeniable love? And do you still believe in that definition of God or that you experienced some kind of being or force like that, but it's not God? And if not, what do you now believe it is/was?
The experience was the singly most incredible thing I've experienced in my entire life. I don't talk a lot about it because I can't prove any of it.
it sounds incredibly beautiful and not being able to prove it hasn't stopped anyone else from talking about these experiences!
I'm really glad you shared this!
I wasn't given any super powers, nor was I told to go forth and spread the word to four corners of the Earth. Had I not come to realize what the word God really means, I'd still say I believe in God.
So you stopped believing in what you did believe in (omnipresent and undeniable love) directly
because you found a new definition for the word God? This part is probably the most confusing to me . . .
Ironically, it was also this very experience that led me to my present place on the path toward what ever truths are waiting down the road. So my personal opinion is that mystical experiences do take place to perfectly normal people who are in certain situations and there are some common features. But is there any particular facet of these experiences that acts like an unmistakable marker of truth? I don't see how that's possible. Anyone could make up a story similar to mine and I wouldn't be able to tell if they were fabricating it or telling the truth.
What kind of "
truth" then do you feel your experience had? It's not an experience you could prove or convey to someone else or be sure if someone described something similar that they had the same experience (on the other hand, if we talked about what's it like to be "in love" - would you feel confident by the way I talked that I had actually had the same or very similar experience that you did? If you were talking to a person that you were currently in love with would you be more certain they were experiencing the same thing or not?)
I hope I don't come across as nit-picky, but what you may take for granted in describing your own experience is very difficult to grasp from the outside (but I don't at all feel you are making this up!) - and I want to understand it - because the argument you have is that you had an experience that you attributed to God - (you had a belief in God directly
because of this experience?) but then you had other experiences, including a new meaning for the word God or the true meaning of the word God and now you no longer believe in . . . what? So, that disbelief came from the other experiences but not from the earlier mystical experience, the direct effect of which was to bring you belief in some kind of "God"? is that at all correct? or am I hopelessly muddled??