I frequently have knowing experiences and until recently I didn't take them very seriously and just thought they were coincidences. My mother and I have always had esp experiences and believed in that phenomena. She is a die hard skeptic and yet believes there are things we don't understand.
The house i was raised in was full of paranormal activity. The television going on and off by itself. I recall watching one afternoon and the tv turned off. I turned it on. It went off. I turned it on it went off, I began to get scared, turned it on once more and it stayed on. I also heard footsteps coming down the hall constantly. And I mean constantly. All day. It was just there. At times I'd hear the footsteps come to the bedroom door and I'd wait for someone to come in. Get up and open the door, and no one was there. Freaked me out. I also would feel something banging my bed from underneath. One night my nightstand began shaking. I thought it was an earthquake. Wasn't. Other family members would occasionally speak up about something they'd experience, but it was a taboo subject. My parents were atheists. I hated that house and couldn't bear to be alone in it. These were some early experiences.
I think the most dramatic of my experiences was when I had left home to go to college. I was living in a four unit apartment complex in Costa Mesa in 1979. There was a serial killer in the news. He was climbing through open windows on first floor apartments and killing young women and raping them. Of course I was fearful, but I lived with my boyfriend and the killer wasn't attacking if there was a man living in the house. There were two young women living directly across from our apartment. One afternoon I was home alone studying and a solicitor came to the door. The moment I set eyes on him I knew he was the killer. I knew it! He was very handsome and well dressed. The first thing he asked was "is your husband home." I pretended he was out momentarily and was there anything i could help him with. He politely dismissed himself. Maybe it was just a coincidence considering the gals across from me were single and the perfect targets, but I had this moment of clarity. I had just gotten into my car and was about to pull out to go to school and it hit me, they were next. I'm 51 and that moment is forever burned into my memory. The quality of the air, the light, the detail of the car interior. Approximately a week later it happened. 2am, a knock at the door. My neighbor had come home to find her friend murdered. We called the police. They questioned us. I told them about the solicitor I thought was him. They noted it but didn't think it was him because others hadn't mentioned such a thing. Then over the course of several months the police would show up asking more questions, particularly about the solicitor. They came to think it was him and it's how he canvassed for victims.
A creepy event I don't care to think about.
I had a death dream that came true. My father.
Some time ago I had an experience of knowing a future event that no one else saw coming, not even the person who perpetrated it. A cheating x boyfriend. I really hated being right! I knew exactly how it would play out, and it did. Did I cause it? Was it subtle things I saw that i wasn't aware of consciously?
I live on an island. A couple weeks ago my present boyfriend left for a few days without mentioning it. I knew he was gone within hours. In my heart I felt he was off the island and his mind in a different place. I couldn't feel his presence. I searched.
Just yesterday my mother had an angiogram. I was very worried and nervous, my heart pounding as I waited for her to come out from the procedure. Approximately 40 minutes into it, I felt this calm and knew everything was ok. That she wouldn't need surgery. And it turned out that way.
I just seem to know things and events. I And also people when I meet them. Their motives and intentions with others and the world around them. And if I'm around them for any length of time, I know them better than they know themselves. It's all like seeing pieces of puzzles that fit together. But these things are not consistent and I can't see or feel when I really want to. Do others have these feelings and intuitions? Is this common?
Then, unlike the knowing thing, I saw something odd in my yard. My yard has no fence and 90 acres of woods around it. Around 2:30 in the morning I got up to go to the bathroom which is right off the master bedroom. From there I could see my dog on the bed looking intently and growling at something outside. I have allot of wildlife around, so I figured it was a deer or raccoon. As I got into bed I was casually looking outside at what caught his attention. I couldn't see anything. But oddly I noticed the horizon was very low in the woods. I could see the night sky through the black trees and it was a cloudy, still night. But this horizon thing caught me. I laid down, he continued to growl, and I kept thinking "hmmmm, I don't recall being able to see the horizon that low. So I sat up and looked closer. It was impossible. There's a ravine and woods with thick brush, and a hill of more of the same beyond, so it couldn't be the horizon. It was a light. As though a piece of the sky was on the ground. Dome shaped, the edges somewhat loose and blurry. We sat starring, he growling and me wondering "What the heck?." As I watched it seemed to slightly intensify and shed light on the tree trunks around it. It was weird because I could see the textured detail of the tree trunks, yet shouldn't be able to from that distance. about 30 ft. And the light it gave off varied. The dome shaped piece of sky wasn't bright at all. It was the same value as the sky. I sat and watched for about 5 minutes and then could see it begin to fade and knew it was going out. And it did with a slight and subtle flash. I did a search on light phenomena and found an illustration of what I thought it could be. Just a dome shaped, ethereal looking light. No explanation. That was two and half years ago and I haven't seen it since. I look now and then, but nothing. At times I wish I had had the guts to go outside and approach it. I was too afraid.
I don't know how this ties in with that kind of 'knowing,' but these are a few of my experiences. I'd like to learn to harness any abilities I may have, if any. I'm torn between skepticism and what might be called the paranormal.
