OK, serious post on the bullet points.
* You had a yellow flash/missing time episode when you were a kid. Your companion saw a UFO, but you did not.
* You've had several flashback memories of aliens, some of which you drew.
* You've had several incidents of synchronicity including your kindergarten companion and a phone call from your producer friend.
* You've had sex in the middle of the night while asleep and you think that's very strange.
* You've tried hypnosis, but it did not work.
* You've 'mis-remembered' a pretty extensive section of the speech that wasn't there.
* You've talked with quite a few UFO luminaries.
* You're doing a documentary--apparently about your own experiences.
* You've stated several times you think your experiences are 'important for the world.'
* You've had some strange dreams.
* You've been reading UFO books for a long time.
Is this a fair summary? I'm not 'studying you' Mike, so I may have missed some stuff; I'm just trying to summarize this long thread and others and trying to 'wrap this up' as it were. We have another show to discuss.
Now, you know I support you in that I resist people calling you names, calling you dishonest, and attaching ulterior motives to your experiences. I've publicly stated this several times and kind of gotten into it a bit that I don't think you are driven by profit, but by being compelled to share, as you have stated. So you know my attitude is not antagonistic toward you.
But there are some problems with your testimony, the exact same problems as I would have if I were in your position. I've been an aficionado of UFO stories since I was in 4th grade or so. I've read quite literally hundreds of books on the subject. I've written on the subject. I've read hundreds of science fiction books and stories. I figured out 'Paul French' was a pseudonym for Isaac Asimov when I was still in elementary school. My testimony is tainted as a result. If I had had an abduction dream after reading
'Intruders' most people would suggest that this was a direct result of reading the book. I saw the first
Time Machine as a kid and was afraid a Morlock was going to come into my bedroom and eat me for weeks! I still hate that movie.
See what I mean? Most of your experiences aren't that weird, sorry. Some of them are a little strange, but even after all this angst over them, we don't have much to go on. Even with hypnosis, tainted in and of itself, we have nothing because it didn't work. We have no witnesses. Most of this is subjective (as I think you would agree), and a lot of it is so old that it is meaningless to speculate. The conclusions are not much more than wonder at it all. I don't see anything dramatically important 'to the world' here, though, from a subjective standpoint, I support importance entirely.
Now, if I can say this next lightly and with no intent to anger you (or anyone), I think you think you are an abductee who cannot quite prove his case or, perhaps more importantly, remember anything about it to tell. I know you feel 'compelled' to tell it, but I'm left wondering: "Tell what, exactly?"
Where's the beef?
What we have is a kind of 'innuendo of a case' that can't quite get there, kind of a shadow story that is, frankly, sucking up time. You do not want to create the impression that you are toying with your listeners. And that is where I think we're going to have to leave it. There is no 'there' there that I can see and compared to other abduction cases, it's on the 'lite' side. That doesn't mean I don't support your voyage of self-discovery. Hell, we're all on one of those. Look at Obama! And I certainly think this 'experiencer compelled to tell' issue is one to discuss further, but without more beef, I'm still hungry.