Sometimes. But most of the time I'm convinced it was the best decision I've made in my life.
By 'taking the red pill' I mean becoming actively involved in the Fortean blogosphere, and specially agreeing to be a News Admin for The Daily Grail. I know this sounds overtly dramatic but I honestly believe becoming a
Grailer saved my life.
It's no secret that many people who have a deep interest in 'the paranormal' suffer from depression. Call it a serotonin deficiency if you will; I consider it 'the splinter in your mind, driving you mad' to plagiarize a certain movie I'm pretty fond of.
Before I became RPJ a good week was when I only thought once or twice about doing something really stupid to myself. A bad day would have at least 3 or 4 episodes of self pity & contemplation of how the world would be better off without me.
Now that I've become a blogger, commenter & God knows what else, those episodes have reduced
considerably. Sure I still get frustrated during traffic, or when I receive my credit cards' balance, or when my car breaks down, but I find myself more emotionally capable of dealing with what the world is constantly throwing down my path.
So taking the red pill is not about smoking cigars & enjoying juicy steaks in fancy restaurants. It's about opening your eyes & contemplating the limitless possibilities this world & this life have to offer.
That is enough for me. I hope it's the same for you