It's me. The annoying one. Biedney asked me to come respond to this. I said no, I'm tired and defending myself is boring. But it's actually a decent thread so fine. I'll respond. (Thanks for the invite, Mr. B.)
First, I'm not part of any movement.
Second, I'm not a New Age freak.
Third some New Age freakishness IS happening to me. Therefore I must conclude that some of that stuff (the stuff I'm experiencing) is real in spite of the maddening idiots who talk about it.
Fourth, I recognize that there's no getting away from it: because I'm talking about "energy" in me and abductions, I am necessarily lumped in with the people I find to be charlatans/delusional--whether that long list actually includes me or not.
Fifth, due to budget cuts, there is no "fifth."
Sixth, see what I did there?
Seventh...and there?
Eighth, 5-7 are jokes. I like to joke around. That doesn't mean I'm pulling one over on the public by nature of being jovial or too giggly or nervous or whatever. Here's the problem: I'm a total hypocrite. Would this were not happening to me, I'd either be making fun of abductions, et al. or ignoring the subjects entirely. That is the truth. I said that in a skeptics' forum and the general response was that that must be my catch: I'm the jokey, breezy "everyman" type. See, folks? I'm just like you. That's what I'm selling. So if I'm a New Age fruit, I'm selling mush and if I'm not, I'm selling normalcy. Can't really win there, can I?
Ninth, because the energy thing is real and palpable, I figure it's got to be detectable by scientific means. Measurable. In UFO Magazine and in radio interviews I've said "Study me." I've said we can do it on the down-low. It doesn't have to be a publicity stunt; I don't have to write about it. Just, if there's a serious consciousness/brain study out there, I want to partake because this is real and therefore important. I have no idea why I take heat for this (not in here, yet, but elsewhere). Why would I say that if I didn't believe it? If someone took me up on that offer and I were a charlatan, they'd figure it out in about 3 seconds, I'd be exposed, end of book/DVD sales.
Incidentally, I hooked up to an EEG a few weeks ago and got some startling results. Within ten minutes of "activating" this energy, both hemispheres of my brain go to an altered state, and I go Delta-wave dominant, which implies I'm in stages 3-4 of deep sleep. And yet there I am prancing around like a fat white idiot doing martial arts, eyes wide open, and cognizant. For those who know what this means (I keep forgetting), there is "incoherence." I appear to be using 10% more of my brain than normal, within 20 minutes. So that proves if only to myself that I'm not lying, not delusional and, surprisingly, not meditating. What am I doing? I don't know. Again, this requires serious study.
Tenth, book & DVD sales suck. Why? Because it's nearly impossible to make money in this field unless you're a hugely famous person like Whitley Strieber or Stan Friedman. I think the reason is that we've all "been there; done that" with abduction accounts and so mine is just another unresolved drop in the bucket. Who cares, right? Besides, you can get all this info and more for free on the net. No, this is NOT about money. It can't be. It doesn't work that way anymore.
Eleventh, and so on and so forth. You get the point.
If I annoy you, that's fine. I annoy me. I think I have an aweful voice. Whatcha gonna do? And yes, when doing radio or addressing an audience, one's voice tends to take on the aire of showmanship. However, I'm not lying. Whatever you think of the presentation, the contents are as real and honest as can be. When I say "another Ice Age," I'm not relating to you scientific knowledge as I'm not a scientist. I'm not relating some New Age prophesy even if it sounds exactly like that to you. I'm simply explaining what I've been shown and told by these "people" from wherever. If it sounds like I and other abductees are hopping on the bandwagon of a certain new trend in science re: global warming, I caution you to remember: No, actually we were talking about this LONG before it was up for public debate. Public debate & mainstream scientific discourse have caught up with what we've been saying for decades (some of us.) And if that is a fact then what's the next fact? Could it be...gulp...that it's unfolding before our eyes just like it was told to us?
All right I've wasted enough of your eyesight. Hope that clears some things up. Just one more note: The reason these beings don't go to the governments or just stop the carnage before it happens is as I said: "Enlightenment" isn't the Kumbaya BS of the New Age or the "Can't we all just get along" of Rodney King. It's not about veganism and recycling and taking your dog to a pet psychologist to find out why lil' Fido doesn't wanna catch the frisbee.
It's waking up to an entirely new point of view, which is, if you'll pardon the religious tone here, God-self awareness (or oneness.) Not our own egoic sense of self but the real deal shining through these here bodies and informing matter. This requires ego suicide--the death of self while the body lives. Who wants that? I don't want that and I'm the one saying it.
But who knows. Maybe I'll cave and let this energy take over for good and see what happens.
In the end, you're right not to trust me or anyone spewing this stuff. (Again, if it weren't happening to me I would not buy one word of my story.)
Find out for yourself. I submit to you that the moment the brain fully gets, deep down, consciously and unconsciously, that it can never know this other state because the other state is to be lived as, not thought about, pondered, or solved...the moment the brain really gets that, it will shut up if only for a moment. In that moment, the self--which is born of the brain--dies. This energy unfolds and speaks its own language, as it were. Then the fun begins. This is what happened to me and is in me always.
Am I enlightened or a clown?
I don't know. I don't care. You shouldn't either. Make it about you, not me. If me, then I become the object of argument, which is another fine way of putting this transformation off. If that's what you want, fine. And so it goes. If not...then just shut up. On all levels, shut up. It's so simple, it's nearly impossible.
But not impossible.